Frenetic Amnesic

Last night

2008-03-15T16:01:03Z

I was in a well bad mood sorry Amanda! I enjoyed seeing you though. I just wanted to punch Samina in the face haha, and basically I moaned about everyone. They have to realise though, I am not attached to Jim!!! We can be in two seperate places at the same time, and if you realy cared you would phone HIM and ask HIM to come out, but you dont even know him well enough to have his phone number so stop pretending to be his best friend!

I like this picture:

My good weekend...

2008-03-05T12:10:40Z

"Met up at the Manor with Sophie, Lauretta, Kayla and Bee and drunk blue lagoons.
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Sophie saw Mitch and got excited. In her words: "I love Mitch!"

Then we went to the Wethervane, met Richard and had some more drinks. Apparantly I kept kissing people

Sophie made me take pictures of bums.

Took some photos in the toilets.

And drunk some more

Ilove Friday nights!
Me and Bee went shopping on Saturday and I brought a skirt which is way too short! So Im gonna take it back. I got a nice cardigan though :) I am never going clothes shopping on Saturday again, I get too stressed out and forget to go in loads of shops, like River Island. I completely forgot about it! I had a nice sarnie though.

In the past 3 months....

2008-02-25T20:11:59Z

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disengagethesim @ 2008-02-25T19:51:00

2008-02-25T19:52:31Z

My mum and dad were having a disagreement last night. The car park for the post office up the road was taped off, and my dad reckons they found a body. My mum reckons it was a robbery. But my dad made a god point of "the shop would be taped off if it was a robbery."

They did find a body. A man my dad knew had a heart attack in his car and someone found him dead. It felt realy eerie.

Having a skelton body is not a good look girls

2008-02-23T16:49:10Z

So I just tried to search for a fashion community on here, and the first one on the list was proanorexia. Why it was under fashion I have no idea, but it was so sad. Some of the things they were saying made me want to cry. They need so much help but I cant do anything because I dont even know who they are.

2 lbs away from my 1st goal weight:) yup yup im feelin good;)
lost 3 lbs since monday and even though i slipped a little yesterday (i ate 3 jellie babies and 2 lollipops more than i should have!) i still was down 1/4 lb when i weighed:)

"hey babes.
how are we all?
well i just took 18 laxatives cuz i freakin binged on a cream bun...like wtf was i thinking? ( the families out tonite)
anyway, my boss just called like 5 mins ago asking if i could work tomoz morning at 6AM.
its 7PM here now...and im a laxative abuser so...they tend to take a bit longer to work on me...and now im going to freakin have to rush to the toilet every 5 mins at work tomoz.
and i dont know what to do.

is there any possible way to make laxatives work faster?

bloody hell..im such a fuck up, i cant get anythng right. what is wrong with me.
i hate living. i cant handle it."

"Today I got my period for the first time in (i'm not kidding) 2 years. Does that mean i'm getting fat again? What is wrong with me? I am so disgusing."

"i feel weak and nauseous and i dont know why
i dont have the energy to do anything and feel really tired even thought i've slept insane amounts compared my usual 2 or 3 hours a night
i'm going out for a meal this evening but have said im not eating due to lack of money
i dont mind going because i wont feel pressured into eating for once
plus it makes me feel strangely good about myself watching everyone else eat when im not"

"i've just had an apple all day today, which was prob about 60 calories : ) my friends are comin over later and they are deff getting suspiscious that i seem to be eating less so i'll have a mini bag of fat free pop corn to get them off my back at least it'll boost my metabolism....."

"im sat here eating a bowl of ben and jerrys cookie dough and chocolate fudge brownie ice cream

i am so angry at myself.

i have been doing so well the last few days, and i had a small plate of salad at lunch time, and that was all i was going to have, and im working later so i will be busy.

so why am i doing this! argh i am angry but i carry on."

Pugs!

2008-02-18T19:41:26Z

Is it just me or is The One Show the most pointless programme on television at the moment? There I was flicking through the next catalogue, with the history of tea on in the background (yes, thats right, nothing to talk about but tea on The One Show), and I found the funniest pug in the whole world. It must have a word where someone shouts it and it pulls a face or something?

For fuck sake

2008-02-02T18:59:09Z

Fucking hell is it cancel on Toni day or something?

Questions of science, science and progress, do not speak as loud as my heart

2008-02-01T20:14:39Z

It's been a good week I think? Instead of talking on the phone, me and Jim decided to go up the Manor on Tuesday for a drink or two, it was really nice. We decided to make that a weekly thing hopefully. Work has been getting better, especially today and I am glad Jenni is back from her holiday. She went to Prague and totally sold it to me! I am definitly going to go there one day.

I have been listening to Coldplay because their songs have been in a couple of films I watched and I forgot how much I like them. Gives nice memories.

I'm staying over Jims tonight and we are going to watch Back to the Future 2. "Whats with the heavy? Why do you keep saying that? Is there something wrong in the future with the earths gravitational pull?"

Tomorrow should be fun. Going out with the girlies in the evening, out to Reading. I'm going up town with Bee and Kayla and hopefully Laura too, I'm going to get some new work clothes. Bee and Kayla are getting their haircut, cant wait to see how it turns out, turning them into some sexier chicks heehee! Then we are going to see Cloverfield, and I finally get to see Manda! Happy days.

Back ache ow ow ow

2008-01-21T17:58:29Z

Oh my god I have never been this hungry in my life! Cant wait to make my chip butty oh yea!
These past 4 days have been pretty good. On Thursday night I didnt feel too good, so stayed at home instead of going to Kaylas. My dad put 28 Weeks Later on and I had forgotten how much I love that film. The music and camera work definitly makes it amazing! Wow.
Friday...I cant remember what I did. Oh I actually cant but I know I did something! Gah.
Saturday I had to work and we caught up on everything which is nice. Jim stayed over, and on Sunday we had a huge lie in and went up town about 3ish. We played on Super Mariokart in the arcade and my item button didnt work. I wanted to use the dynamite! Then we went to see Alien Vs Predator 2: Requim. Dun dun stupid name! Amy was down so we played on Scene It in the evening, my dad is so competitive its so annoying, I came 2nd though. We watched The Holiday aswell, it was a nice film.

Missage :(

2008-01-07T19:27:41Z

I miss going out with Zara and Tonni and Charlotte. They used to invite me out all the time and now they never do, it sucks!

Diet time

2008-01-03T21:32:35Z

So I started my diet on Wednesday, along with my mother. Everyone is saying I dont need to lose weight, but when I'm going up dress sizes I need to stop somewhere dont I? I dont want to gradually get up to a size 20 because then it will be so much harder, so I'm gonna do it now. It has been good so far, I havent completely cut out chocolate otherwise I would scoff a huge bar, so I have just been having chocolate coins after dinner and stuff. That's the only bad thing I've had really, everything else has been good, and I have been drinking water which is shocking for me heehee. Plus when I'm off my stupid period I can go swimming :) Wish me luck!

2008 wawawoowa

2008-01-01T18:22:16Z

Hey peeps, havent been on here for a while!

Updates
Finished college, got B, B and D (gay photography, I hate Rupa) and I now have a new job at Richards Gray, to do with Home Information Packs. It's uber good!

Lauras New Years Eve party was better than I expected, although I drunk a lot but had to make myself sober up quickly to look after Jim. Drinking on an empty stomach is no no good.

Bee has the same outlook on this year as I do, spend more time with friends and go out more, I'm only 18 so woo.

Zoo house

2007-09-07T19:36:41Z

So I've been looking after my aunts house since the 28th August. She has chickens, 2 dogs, a cat, fish, a ferrit and a hamster. So cute! But it gets annoying sometimes, you just wanna sit down and you have to sort out the animals. We are trying to get the dogs used to being out the room when we eat, and they are getting used to not sleeping in the bed. They whine for a while but I just see it as a little kid not being able to get their own way, then its not so bad. Molly fidgets so much, thats why they sleep out the bedroom. We let them in for a cuddle and Molly fell off the bed, then jumped straight back up and headbutted my forehead, it really hurt :(
They have a jacuzzi bath :D
I should be looking for a job :S But I've been seeing friends. I really dont wanna go to connexions on Tuesday. Someone phone and cancel for me!
Last Saturday I went to Envy with Zara, Tonni, and her friend Danielle and some other people. It was really fun. Theyre turning me to chavvy music though haha.
Jims birthday was on the 4th. It was cool. He got lots of money. I made him a cake, got him the Enemy's album and Editors tickets. His dad took us out for a meal. Marilyn and Ryan came too.
Saw the Plain White T's yesterday. That was fun :D
I love living with Jim.

Oh no he's chained to a smurf!

2007-08-10T17:34:26Z

Thorpe Park was really fun. And I drove there without getting lost wahooo. I cant believe I went on Stealth again I hate that ride. Nemesis was wicked, of course. Rush was pretty cool but too short. Had pizza hut for lunch too, yay! I should have brought a lunchbox and taken some pizza home heehee.

"omg emos youre well ugly innit. brraaappp"

Cards and photos

2007-07-02T12:39:35Z

I'm gonna start selling photos and home made cards soon, but I will post pictures up when I do. Spread the word people! (please?)

Love

2007-06-20T19:05:39Z

I'm completly in love. I dont see us ever letting each other go. He makes my heart pound so hard I feel as if it's going to come out of my chest! Perfect.

Recent photos

2007-06-13T11:34:29Z

And fun with paint heehee

The system sucks

2007-05-25T17:19:34Z

I hate all these celebrities who get away with committing crimes just because they are famous. It's not fair on the rest of us

Summer

2007-05-23T13:16:02Z

I've been all thinky today. It's been nice to have a day off, have a nice lay in and what not. I took Ben out and had my headphones on, and saw an aeroplane fly overhead, but you know some songs remind you of summer and good times, well one was on and I got all excited to go on holiday next week ^_^
I had gone to take Ben out in the fields, and I hadnt been that way in ages and I was remembering all the times I played out when I was a little kid, it feels weird to be 18 now. Like when everyone used to go to hang out under the bridge at Splash, or when me and Joe used to play on our bikes and ride roundin circles lol, and when Fraser and Lyle used to live across the road and we used to play out, and go over there and play dodgeball, or hide and seek, and when Ben had a fight with their dog and Della was hitting their dog with a broom haha. Good times

Good days

2007-04-15T17:01:25Z

Yay my car is fixed and we are having a bbq tonight, then I get to see Bee-bo ^_^
Then we get to go back to college, I dont want to though

I wanna drive my fucking car!

2007-04-13T15:06:10Z

That wanker hasnt come to look at my car and he was meant to come at 12, am I ever gonna get to drive the bloody thing?

Ooh O_o

2007-03-14T11:48:48Z

I cant believe I have written over 3000 words for my media essay and I still have more to do.
In the library with Becky at the moment, she got a new library card. Woo.

I want a car

2007-03-01T09:20:42Z

On Monday I passed my driving test!!! 8 minors, apparantly he was the hardest examiner so I was chuffed. Dad tried to get me on his car insurance, but he phoned them and they said that because of his policy I was too young, so I wont be able to get a car until May. (I'm getting money for my birthday). At least I'll be able to have a car by the summer holidays, which means I can drive down to the Isle of Wight with James and Bee in their car, and more stuff can fit in the car lol. Thinking of going to Alton Towers in the holidays too, that would be funky.
Havent been up to much, just doing as much overtime as I can so I have extra money for car/clothes/holiday.

"baaaaa" says Frank

2007-02-23T20:44:52Z

Just sitting in my room, while Jim is in the shower. We have to sleep in a matress on the floor cos my bed had to be taken apart. My room is being re-decorated yay! Everyone else is watching Top Gear downstairs. Did anyone watch the one where they drove through America. It was well funny. I had the TV to myself a few hours ago, it was good :) Watching Futurama, Bender rules!
Had a bit of a moan to Amanda today about missing people, sorry if that bored you! Bee invited me and Jim to go to the cinema tomorrow, but we have no money :( I well wanna go. Apparantly Becky thought something was up with me, cos I havent stayed at college during my huge 3 hour long breaks. But I am ok! Just get bored, so might as well go home and eat a nice lunch of cheese on toast yum. I'm stuck on Bombermam, there are these grim reaper things that dodge the blasts and I dont know how to kill them. >.

Tuesday

2007-01-30T11:01:46Z

Why is no one around? I hung out with Mandah for a bit, but she had to go so I now have half an hour on my own. Sarah should be down here, but she decided to go to Lizzy's lesson instead. Am I that boring? :(
heehee
Bens party was on Saturday, and I managed to get drunk without buying any alcohol, yay! I love it when that happens. I had a word with Pete though cos he was giving the dog alcohol. And I made up with Becky. She has a funny laugh lol. Jim got a weird phonecall from his cousin about the creature wanting to be friends with him again, but they were drunk aswell so apparantly she didnt mean it and nothings gonna happen. I didnt really mind anyways, it was just confusing cos she hadnt spoken to him for like a year.